Hello! My name is Kevin Palma-Gamboa.
You might know me from real life, some of you might know me from YouTube, or if you're new to this place then you've never met me before. Either way, you're judgements formed against me will certainly come from a combination of my blog title, my website design, and of course the astrological signs I hold; Taurus, born on May 19th, millennial generation, etc.
If you know what this feels like, you should probably re-evaluate your life. At least that's what they told me.
can't pay attention too long?
Now like all of the other people you have met, I cannot be there to represent myself true 100% of the time. And thus, yeah I have issues and mess up a lot. I'm not necessarily a person that loves quitting, but I can't stand being still. I'm part of the young, smartphone generation, but honestly I don't really use my smartphone like most people use their phones. I'm not on snapchat, and I don't use Instagram.
Instead, I prefer to read everything online, from articles to forums and Wikipedia. Not that I want to get off track or anything, but you could tell I love to browse the internet. It's weird, but for this same reason I've negatively affected my life because of this quick, adapting technology. And it's entirely my fault, too. I can't seem to pay attention for too long, probably because of the food that we eat here in the United States. Many fast food restaurants use MSG, which is known to be linked to cancer and ADHD.
My problem, however, is also that I grew up in a very bipolar city; Atlanta, GA. I was also "raised" by a pretty bipolar single mother as well. Now before you claim I'm trying to blame everything on everyone else, all I'm hinting is that these are factors which led me to being the way I am, hyper-sensitive and overly moody in situations. I'm choosing to change that starting this year and no I'm not perfect. I did actually go to college, but not for very long. I keep watching videos about why college sucks, because it does and it's a scam, but I dropped out of college after only four months and of course, people probably judge me for it.
College isn't for everybody though, and I always knew that the school system was whack. You want to know the messed up part? Jobs are also pretty whack to me as well and depending on what your beliefs are; You might think I'm lazy, crazy, and a quitter. I'm not. I just hate being normal, boring, and like everyone else. This doesn't give me any reason to have had over ten different jobs in the last two years though haha (:
a resume full of gaps!
But what should be distinct here is that half of these jobs weren't really for that long anyways. I worked at Marco's Pizza for only 2 days because the entire staff advocated drug paraphanelia and I'm not into that stuff. I worked at Andretti's Indoor Karting & Games for 2 months because the a-hole manager was scheduling me 10 hour shifts while I was at college. I worked at Quiktrip for only a week because well, their training required me that I greet every single customer coming in and I got 'fired' for missing that part on their training checklist. I also did a brief stunt at Chic-fil-A for pretty much a month, this time because the owner's son was a little spoiled brat and I gave out free drinks to my high school friend because I was so nervous that day not trying to mess anyone's order up.
The point is most of the time by some unforeseen force of nature, I was either let go or told myself this is really not worth the time because I can be doing something better like developing a business that actually serves the needs of people and not doing robotic, cog-in-the-wheel type of work. I know that sounds pretty crazy and egotistical to most people, but if you're not meant for a relationship then you're just not meant for it.
Yes, I'm coming off bipolar when you're reading all of this but seriously I don't want to feel sorry for myself. As shitty as those experiences were, I wish I would have stuck out at the jobs where I had the choice to do so and not quit so early. I'm just not that good at keeping a bunch of crap inside of myself and delaying the gratification of practically giving my boss the finger.
This is why I want to actually change that about myself and really begin to see the benefits of such change come into action. I'm not writing this sob story to try to get anyone to pity me neither, because I deserve everything that happened to me at these stupid, punk ass jobs. (I'm only talking like this to get a point across, PG fans) Jobs = Just over broke.
So as crazy as it sounds for someone like me, perhaps setting a goal of staying in one of these jobs for at least a year is definitely something that I'm aiming for, even though we all know entrepreneurship is better. And I was actually planning on doing that with the last area of employment I had, which was a door-to-door sales job that I left because the owner was stealing from my paychecks. Whatever, fuck that guy. <--- Say this whenever you look back at all the shitty, terrible bosses that you've had, all the mean, rude people you've dealt with, and all of the people who doubted you and said you couldn't do it.
Hell, to be honest I'm actually proud to have had many different corporations hire me. I know job hoppers are HR's nightmare, and it certainly doesn't make me look good at all but one thing's for sure is that I'm setting goals for myself to go get it and become a better version of myself. My past is just that, the past. It doesn't say or show anything that I'm capable of now; especially because I'm reaching for my goals and the destination!